"The grounds beneath us might be different, but the sky remains the same"
The beauty of short low-budget independents will never cease to amaze me. It’s amazing what can be created with a group and passionate people and a camera.
To be honest, the thought of a committed relationship actually terrifies me now.
The idea of putting my trust and love and emotions on one person scares me because we as people are temporary. I hate the idea that my happiness can fall on a single person
I wish I didn’t feel this way. I admire those who are so open to love and I wish I could be more like that, but from my past I have learned that people, in both relationships and friendships, will love for some time until they grow out of you or replace you.
It’s all temporary. Forever does not exist
So I’m sorry that I’m so distant. I’m sorry I seem cold sometimes. I’m sorry it can take me days to respond to you. I know it’s not fair and you don’t deserve it. All I ask is that you continue to be patient with me, because I promise I’ll get there. It’s just going to take a little time.
You know what would be really fucking nice? A day the Cta just ran normally you know? No delays, no single track trains, no waiting 12 mins at every fucking stop. I’ve seriously never been more motivated to buy a car than I have been these past few weeks. CTA is literally a pathetic shit show. Seriously though, fuck you
All my blood work came back negative and I’ve never been so relieved in my life! I’ve probably had about 5 mental breakdowns in the past week but I’m happy to say it was all for nothing. Never take your health for granted!!That being said I still have a major decision to make in a short amount of time. I always knew I wouldn’t stay in Chicago but I never pictured myself leaving so soon. Only a couple more weeks to decide whether I’ll call Raleigh Studios in Los Angeles home this June. I definitely think it’s time for a change of scenery, not sure if my bank account agrees with me.